Whirlwind

Since my last post, things went crazy

I found out my loving wonderful boyfriend has been talking to other women online. Women he hasn't met in person or had sex with, but he's sent them photos and sexual videos. This lead to a fight. A big fight. One that left me in a state of paralysis and stupidity. I knew if it were one of my friends, I'd say to leave him. No questions asked, done deal, the end. But it's me, and honestly..... I really think he is sorry. Our argument replays in my head over and over. The woman he did the things with is very nice and didn't make a scene when she showed me evidence of his dealings. Right now, all I know is I love him. I want things to go back to the way they were. Do I wait around and risk being a fool again..... Or do I swallow my love and make a clean break

I gotta see this one through. I love him. 

A vent

So over the past few days the man I'm in a relationship with has come to visit me. I can't be happier that he's here.... But last night he dropped a bomb on me. He told me that despite his wishes he will not be able to move in with me. 

Now.... You may be wondering why on earth is this upsetting. I am a traditional woman only in a few ways. One of which is to be married before I live with a man. However, my current boyfriend.... God knows I love him. And I want nothing more than to be with this man and grow old with him. So I let my guard down and allowed myself to get excited about having him with me. Then this happens. If anything I am scolding myself for getting my hopes up. He wants to work to be more financially stable, I get that. I support that. His money does not matter to me.... But it does to him. I see why some men get concerned when their woman is more successful than them. They feel a need to catch up. I also see why some women date men just as successful as they are.... So they don't have to slow down. I love this man and until I find out love isn't enough, I'm not going anywhere.